Sunday, November 7, 2010

Drunk Dialer Dillema

The drunk dialer has his very own ring so I know it's him even before I look at the caller ID.

Do I answer it? Or do I let it ring and let him think I'm sleeping?

There's history there. We know each other. Very well. We lived together for a while And it would be nice to have someone to snuggle up to for a while. But that's just it, I think. It's only for a while. He's never going to be a part of my life they way I want someone to be. People keep telling me, "You can't go back again."

But really? We tried to once and I screwed it up. And when I tried to patch things up and pick up where we left off, he turned me down. And I was pissed about that. But now I realize that I needed some time by myself to figure out what I want and what I need.

And probably what I need is not a "drunk dialer" who only calls in the middle of the night when he's lonely and horny. But, like I said. We know each other. It's easy. It's familiar. It's good. And he does love to snuggle.


Michelle said...

I'm no expert but, is it a wise idea to be with an active drinker? I think you have already answered that question yourself, I just wanted to echo it.
I'm glad you picked back up your blogging. I missed it.

Lana D said...

Thanks for the support. And no, an active drinker probably is not the wise choice at this point. I'm stronger in my program than I have ever been and the drunk dialer supports that choice. But, yeah. No. Not a long term fix.

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